Friends

I have always had many friends. In general people like me. However I had some problems allowing myself to connect with people, to really trust them. I always felt like the floor was about to drop out from under the friendship, and honestly, it always did. I would move, or they would stop talking to me, or I would get upset over something and cut them off. It wasn't a healthy cycle for me let me tell you.

Well, I now can honestly say I have six GREAT friends. Two of my friends I spend a lot of time with. We knit and shop and eat and talk about absolutely everything. I have never had a bond with friends like these two ladies. I feel safe with them, and I trust them. We are all different and that is what brings us closer. We call each other on our crap. We have a lot of fun together, we cry together and we truly love each other.

I have two other good work friends that I love to go out to the movies with, and we talk about most everything. We are all crazy busy, but make time for each other to hang out.

Then I have two other friends that I don't get to hang out with very much, but I talk to them about everything. They know my darkest secrets, they know all of my crazy, they know the things I don't feel comfortable talking about because I work at a school ( I used to work in theatre people, I have STORIES!!!).

There are many more out there that I love as well, but these six have really made the effort to get to know me.

I can't tell you how nice it is to love these fine ladies. To really give my full heart to them, knowing that something may happen in the future that could tear us apart, but I refuse to live my life in fear of being left anymore. I prefer to live in the world of trust. It is much better living here then it ever was when I was living to protect myself.

I love all of my friends, and I am so lucky to have you all. The longer I sit here the more friends I feel like adding. This was meant to be a short post so I will let it be. If you don't see yourself here, know you are in my heart non the less.