Background

So when I was 11 I attended the church of gossip and dressing well. When my parents divorced the congregation went from one of support to one of back stabbing and I was simply turned off. I stopped believing in God.

I moved to another town in Montana with my mom and we found a great group of people who were working in the Course in Miracles. This group of adults were crazy and fun. We did drumming, guided meditation, body testing, quantum physics and they allowed me to be who I was. Through that group I came into my own spiritual self.

I came to believe in reincarnation. I came to find that before my life started I had decided every step of my life in a big room with other spirits. I picked my family and my friends, I decided what I wanted to learn and achieve in this life time. I also came to believe that the only thing I have proof of is that I exist. The rest of you could just be figments of my imagination.

I trucked along with this idea until May 7th, 2011 where I found the Akashic Records books of Linda Howe. That day my relationship with my mother changed drastically; I changed drastically. Entering the records for the first time was like a warm hug, in my own arms. I was skeptical, of course, but the more time I invested, the better I felt and the more connected I was to my life and my friends. I didn't feel so awkward and alone, like a crazy person.

I connected with friends on a whole new level, and that is still shifting. My relationship with my husband has always been a strong one, but now the love simply poured out of me for him. I wasn't worried about rejection or if I was showing him too much and smothering him. I simply felt more comfortable being myself.

Fascinating.

I have always been a hard nut to crack. I have a great fun exterior that I show to everyone so they will be distracted and not injure my soft creamy middle.  I am often the life of the party. However I would always be surprised if one of my friends actually wanted to spend their birthday with me. I just didn't get how they could want to spend important days of their life alone with me.

But now with the records I don't need to fill all of the gaps in a conversation. Hell, there is a conversation not just me entertaining everyone. It really is neat to hear what other people have to say for a change. You all are fascinating.

But on the other hand I am even more gregarious than before. I laugh louder and heartier simply because it is all so much funnier than it was 6 months ago. I enjoy the time I have. It is crazy.

So, that is the background of me. I have a lot of crap in my past. Who doesn't? I am working through it. I work on myself everyday, but today was easier because I woke up and did 20 minutes of So Ham.

I will go now and see what trouble I can get myself into.

Hugs and Love!